So I woke up feeling kind of sad today. Nothing too terrible, but it was there.
Thankfully, one of my closest friends asked me to meet her and her infant daughter for brunch. Brunch was delicious and an incredible thing happened.
She asked me to be her daughter’s godmother!! I am elated. I was hoping she’d ask, but after some time had passed and she hadn’t, I figured she’d asked someone else. I’m so glad she asked me today too. Now I have something positive to associate with this day for the rest of my life.
The picture is of the cake I bought for Mom-Mom. I wish she was here to enjoy it with me. I’m not sure having cake in her honor will help much, but I’m going to give it a try.
I still miss my grandmother terribly, but I’m starting to feel less alone. I have my tribe of people here that love me and I can still feel my grandmother’s love now that I’m not so focused on her death.
I’ve survived another birthday of hers. This one was a little easier, so I’m hoping, eventually, I’ll be able to just celebrate her on this day and not mourn her. But if I can, that day is a long ways away.