Happy Valentine’s Day to all of you! Whether you’re single or coupled, I hope you had a day filled with love.

I wanted to have a perfect, happy day today, but that’s not how it turned out. I just wasn’t feeling very peppy today. I even broke my “black for a year” rule and wore my magenta and black Vince Camuto shirt to put me in the spirit, but it didn’t work. I did receive a compliment from a man on my shirt though, which I appreciated. (It’s back to black tomorrow BTW.)

As the work day ended and many people headed off to dinner with their spouses, I headed off to pick up dinner, alone, from Willy’s. If you live in Georgia and have never been to Willy’s, you’re really missing out. It’s delicious.

As I was standing in line waiting to order, I started to get this feeling I may be spending the rest of my life without a partner. That made me sad, but I knew it wasn’t the worst thing in the world. If I can survive the death of the person who was/is my world, I can survive anything.

If I’m being completely honest, I go to this Willy’s two or three times a week. It’s right down the street from my house and I love Willy’s, so why not? Most of the staff knows me and my order, I always get the same thing, and the manager on duty tonight is my favorite.

She finished making my tacos, put them and my chips in a bag and handed them to me, before I could walk down to the register, as she said, “Happy Valentine’s Day,” i.e. she gave me my meal for free. She also gave me a free meal when my grandmother died because she lost her grandmother seven years ago and told me she “knew that pain.” See why she’s my favorite?

When she gave me my food, I clutched my chest and said, “Really?” “Yep,” she replied. At that moment, it felt like God and my grandmother were reminding me, one, they’re always with me and two, the story’s not over yet. It’s too soon to say I’m going to be single the rest of my life. Sometimes I need that reminder.

As today is the first day of Lent, I’ve decided to take something on instead of giving something up. I’m going to actually keep one of my New Year’s resolutions: I’m going to write every single day of Lent. This will hopefully make me feel like I’m moving towards my goal of a career in entertainment and hone my writing skills. I will be writing in this blog at a minimum every day, which I’m hoping will increase my viewership, and if I still have energy after that, I’ll work on an erotic short story I’ve been meaning to finish, then one of the two books I’m working on. I will also be, as I do every Lent, focusing more on my relationship with God and trying to be a more Christ-like person.

I expect all of you to hold me accountable. If in one of the days between now and Easter, you don’t see a new post, let me know!

I’ve never written every day for such a long period of time, so I’m excited to see what creativity it will unleash.

What are you giving up or taking on for Lent? Let me know in the comments!